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[kuangning]

Assumptions...

Hanging on to a memory of hurt because you're too afraid to find out whether things have changed. Never letting go of the hypervigilance, too busy being wary to notice that no-one's wielding the knife any longer. Too obsessed with the memory of things lost, to see what could be.

Abraham, are we sometimes bound by pride?
Too mindful of our hopes and dreams, to let the anger slide?

... What of the future, Abraham?
Will we achieve some peace?
From these solitudes we wander in,
Will there be some release?

-- James Keelaghan, Abraham

I'm tired of guarding against blows that haven't fallen yet... aren't you? I'm sick of wondering, and I think maybe you feel the same way. I'm thinking back beyond pain to a time that wasn't bad, even if it wasn't entirely right, and remembering what used to be, before there was this. I don't want to go back in time, I needed the lessons I learned, and that will never happen again, but I'm ready to go on now. Take a chance, and walk with me again awhile?

Comments

[wiredferret.livejournal.com]

What a beautiful way to put it. I have often wanted to say the same thing, but can't. I think, in part, that this is not something that someone can say to you, about your life -- it is something everyone has to realize for themselves.

[kuangning]

That's so true... because until you realize it for yourself, anyone's attempt to point it out will be seen as an attack in itself. At least, it works that way for me. Thanks for your thoughts and your time.

*hugs.*