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Lots I should be saying, but...

• My aunt's funeral is slated for tomorrow. My mother left today (and you cannot believe the relief that's wrapped up in those words...) and will be back on Monday.
  
  It hurts. I don't even get to be there to see her one last time. It hurts worse that the person who is "representing" this branch of the family is the one of us whose feelings about this are summed up by such quotes as "at least this is the last money she'll ever cost me" and "what does it matter if you know where she's buried? what're you going to do, lie down in the grave with her?"
  
  'Nuff said.
  
  With that said, though - I'm all right. I'm not so silly as to think I'm unshakable, but I'm not in danger of going over the edge without something major and disastrous happening in addition to this. The last thing she'd have wanted would have been for me to blow months of stability over her.
  
  ( you know what? life's too short. )

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number of people on my lj friends list: 140 minus 6 communities and 3 duplications = 131
...whom I've met in person: 8
...whom I've met in person more than once: 5
...whose house I've been to: depending on the definition of "house," 7
...who have been to my house: 2
...whose precise geographic location I know offhand: 26
...whose full names I know offhand: 12
...whom I've followed/been in touch with for more than 3 years: defining that loosely as "had contact with more than three years ago": 16. I haven't had extensive contact with any of those for the whole 3 years.
...whose journal I consider myself "addicted" to: 131
...whom I've lived with: short term? 2 long term: 1
...who's an ex: 3
...who I've done: I so know better than to answer that.
...who I have a secret crush on: none. my crushes aren't secret.