song of the moment...

[kuangning]

Heaven bend to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight
Truth be told I tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear

Though I’ve tried I’ve fallen
I have sunk so low
I’ve messed up
Better I should know
So don’t come round here and
And tell me I told you so

We all begin with good intent
When love was raw and young
We believe that we can change ourselves
The past can be undone
But we carry on our back the burden time always reveals
In the lonely light of morning
In the wound that would not heal
It’s the bitter taste of losing everything
I’ve held so dear

I’ve fallen
I have sunk so low
I’ve messed up
Better I should know
So don’t come round here and
Tell me I told you so

Heaven bend to take my hand
With no where left to turn
I’m lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turn their heads embarrassed
Pretend that they don’t see
That it’s one missed step, one slip before you know it
And there doesn’t seem a way to be redeemed

Though I’ve tried I’ve fallen
I have sunk so low
I’ve messed up
Better I should know
So don’t come round here and
Tell me I told you so

I’ve messed up
Better I should know
Don’t come round here and
Tell me I told you so

I’m tired. Really tired. The relentless beat won’t let me slow down, though, and I think it’s the only thing keeping me moving right now. I’ve run out of places to put boxes—as half my stuff was already in boxes, occupying the available space—and while I don’t really have that much to pack, finding ways to pack it is definitely a challenge. I may just resort to cleaning around the boxes now, and picking up some more boxes later, to be packed while/when my father and brother have cleared the room of the already-packed boxes.

I need to:

• re-box my knitting supplies


• fill and reseal the half-empty boxes that never actually got unpacked all the way


• do the dishes and pack them away


• finish the last load of laundry


• gather the things in the laundry room and bathroom


• vacuum once the boxes are gone


• pack the things on my desk, which includes my good speakers, so I'm procrastinating

I also desperately want a shower and to tend to my hair so it doesn't look like someone dragged me through a bush backwards! I may do that first, I think, or at least second, while the current load of laundry dries.

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