life....

[kuangning]

Continues.

I owe so very much, now, to a few very special people, and a great deal to many more... and all I can say is thank you. It doesn't really seem like enough. katster, (happy birthday, hon...) tequilasunset, pounce, nighthawk, ameth, galith, and all the others who worried and hoped and set out to prove me wrong... thank you. Especially thank you to, unsurprisingly, my own fearghaill, for doing more than one person should even have been able to do, to change my mind and my mood, and zorbathut for showing me, and not for the first time, what love and friendship at their best look like.

There's another name that belongs on this list of thank you's, I know. And to this person, I'm going to say that I haven't forgotten you, because you began the repair they took up... but since I also owe you an apology and we haven't settled things between us, yet, I'm hoping for an amendment to this entry after a long talk and a coming to terms in private.

fearghaill made me cry today... it seems to be a trend with him lately. But the lyrics are so pretty that I'm going to forgive him. The words are better than any I could come up with right now.

Trust Yourself - Blue Rodeo

Someday soon
I don't know when
Your little world
Will come crashing in
Don't think twice
I'll be around
Turn your back
Someone's gonna let you down
You know that it's true
Nobody led you on
They left that to you
Now you'll be alone
When the sun comes up
With your tattered little dreams
And a broken cup
Then you'll have to
Trust yourself
And don't believe in any more lies

You waste your time
Think too much
Really make a mess
Of the things you touch
Poor little bird
With a broken wing
Better look around now
You know you're losing everything
It's just a game
Thought you had it all lined up
But somehow that's changed
Now you'll have to run
And not get caught
And you'll have to hide
If you like it or not
Then you'll have to
Trust yourself
And don't believe in any more lies

Someday soon
And it won't be long
You'll ring the bell
But they'll all be gone
They took your jewels
And your statues too
Left you with a pile of things
You never learned how to use
Here it comes again
You showed us where it all began
Well here's where it ends
And you'll be alone
When the sun comes up
Tattered little dreams
And a broken cup
Then you'll have to trust yourself
And don't believe in any more
Trust yourself
And don't believe in any more
Trust yourself
And don't believe in any more lies

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