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kuangningTime to clarify a little, I guess.
Ari, I apologise for the fact that you've taken flak from others on my behalf. I was angry at the time, but I did not confront you or encourage anyone else to do so, because I knew I would get over it. And I have done. I won't apologise for anyone who confronted you because they also felt anger at what you'd said, but anyone who's come to you on my behalf has done so without my knowledge or encouragement.
I know I explained to a couple of people, most notably kat, but it probably bears repeating -- ari's comments were not the sole reason or even the major reason I left. Smoothing things over with her or discussing things with her doesn't affect my decision; it's one I've been coming to slowly for awhile, and I've not been on -any- IRC network or channel. I like and respect almost all of you, some of you I do love dearly, but the group dynamic leaves me feeling alienated most days. I was communicating with no-one, and only chattering idly to the channel -- white noise that was taking up time and thoughtspace I could be using elsewhere. Beyond that, I'd begun to wonder if I was capable of connecting with anyone anymore. Now I know, and I prefer this to that; I think it's better for me. I certainly don't want to leave arguments and the like behind me, though. *wrysmile.* Take care of each other for me.
Ari, I apologise for the fact that you've taken flak from others on my behalf. I was angry at the time, but I did not confront you or encourage anyone else to do so, because I knew I would get over it. And I have done. I won't apologise for anyone who confronted you because they also felt anger at what you'd said, but anyone who's come to you on my behalf has done so without my knowledge or encouragement.
I know I explained to a couple of people, most notably kat, but it probably bears repeating -- ari's comments were not the sole reason or even the major reason I left. Smoothing things over with her or discussing things with her doesn't affect my decision; it's one I've been coming to slowly for awhile, and I've not been on -any- IRC network or channel. I like and respect almost all of you, some of you I do love dearly, but the group dynamic leaves me feeling alienated most days. I was communicating with no-one, and only chattering idly to the channel -- white noise that was taking up time and thoughtspace I could be using elsewhere. Beyond that, I'd begun to wonder if I was capable of connecting with anyone anymore. Now I know, and I prefer this to that; I think it's better for me. I certainly don't want to leave arguments and the like behind me, though. *wrysmile.* Take care of each other for me.